Decided i’m gonna go back to proper blogging on blogger again, it doesnt/shouldnt have to be anything fancy, but i wanna have something to look back to and remember. Checking back on two of my old blogs is like taking a ride back and watching how i grew through this whole journey. And one thing i can say is that, i’ve no regrets, cos our past is what brought us to where we are today.
Wanted to get it done after my exams but got a little excited so… might just start working on it bit by bit everyday after my study time. New url, new layout, everything. :)
& I want the chance to make it up. I’m happy with where i am, and how life is now, but i don’t want to have any regrets. And one thing is, i don’t wanna continue feeling bad upon realizing that what once was, was good. ‘Ve moved on, but that’s also where i grew up to see that there could always be some compromise in every situation. You know, we can be great friends. Maybe, but it’s worth a shot.
Sidenote, i’m really thankful how things have taken a sudden change, how it was such an upsetting week yet suddenly, all’s well. I’m so happy, the little joys of each day means so much. Happy at home, happy with j, happy with friends which even make studying that much easier.
J, thank you for being so understanding, and trusting me whole heartedly, and for being ever so supportive too. You understand that it is my nature and i’m just being me by all that i’m feeling, and you didn’t realise, that’s you being you too, being so genuine, and loving people just the way they are. :)
For now, its time to hit the books again, and get started on the real blog. I’ll see you on the other side x
9:46 pm • 24 April 2013 • 25,530 notes
Sometimes i think i lead a really blessed life, and sometimes i realise i lead a really, really sad life.
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10:31 pm • 11 April 2013 • 79,544 notes
THIS IS JUST A RANTING POST. Please don’t read it. I probably am not even my rational self while typing this.
“Those who said you can’t, are just the reason why you should.”
This line has just been ringing in my head non stop, i can’t help but be affected by all the disbelief in me, or lack there of any encouragement possible. It’s affecting me so much till the point of anger, silent anger, bitterness. I know it’s wrong, especially when y’all are the ones i love most. But every time, i’m just reminded, and hit by another wave of that notion that you’ll never be proud of me for what i enjoy doing. I can’t help but feel that y’all are bias and it hurts. And then i’m reminded that y’all always love me. But then yet again, this period’s a tough one, and yet… I don’t know is it because i’ve been quiet, and i’ve not been saying anything, or is it because y’all haven’t been asking. Why is it so hard to tell y’all whats on my mind?
But here’s one that i wanna put out. I LOVE SINGING. I LOVE IT SO MUCH. I might not be the best, but it’s possibly what i’m best at doing. Why is it friends or accquaintances can give me that little bit of motivation, encouragement, assurance, but none.. none from y’all. It’s been so long. It’s not like i’m depending on it for my future. I just enjoy it, and maybe, just a little acknowledgement would do? We’re all passionate with different things, aren’t we? Why is that with everything i do, i’m so.. doubted?
No one said it was going to be easy. But i’m gonna hold on to the quote above, and the one that J and i will stick by. “Prove them wrong”. I might not have what it takes, and i will never be the best. But in whatever i do, i’m just gonna give it my best shot, and look back and have no regrets.
I’m tired of all this anger and sadness, i’m tired of keeping it inside of me. And you have no idea, how much i just want to scream, and shout, and let it all out. And quiet my angsty heart. Just let it all out and tell myself to shut. And be happy again. It’s not like i’m not now, but i need to stop thinking this way.
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10:41 pm • 10 April 2013 • 328,927 notes
“But side note, today’s been a blessed blessed day. Possibly my best in months. Im so happy :)”
12:51 am • 2 March 2013
If it wasn’t what you desired and what you had hoped for, if things didnt turn out how you wanted, would YOU still praise Him all the same?
12:50 am • 2 March 2013
And each day i remind myself, there’s so much to be thankful for.
Thank you God.
10:14 pm • 27 February 2013
Those moments where you type a whole post out, but it doesn’t reflect what’s in your heart, so you don’t post it in the end.
We grow up, we grow old.
The less we have, the more we treasure.
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10:22 pm • 15 February 2013 • 33,967 notes
Its february already. January just flew by, but overall im still so thankful for everything.
Few things on the to do list before i sleep:
- Meet the 5 soon
I can feel the pressure coming, on certain occasions it hits me so hard i cant help but break down. But its not too late to start now. So i shall, i must, and i can.
Sorry the the super incoherent ‘note-taking’-ish post. But anyhoo i had a fulfilling day, making someone’s day better and subsequently having a nice dinner with the cell.
Reminder of the year to self: there’s so much to be thankful for :)
1:49 am • 1 February 2013
The first 2 weeks of the year have come and gone, and all i can say is, i’m blessed far and beyond whatever i deserve. From the littlest of things, to such big ones, i can’t be more thankful. Thank You for being so faithful, thank You that You are so big yet You take care of me, of us.
Help me never ever take this for granted, but be thankful always.
And, so so thankful for family, extended ones even, bestest of friends who stood by, and j.
Faith, hope, joy, love :)
10:49 pm • 15 January 2013
Doug Perrine captured these stunning photographs in the Maldives. The particular location (Vaadhoo Island) has a concentrated population of bioluminescent phytoplankton. Bioluminescence is a natural chemical reaction which occurs when a micro-organism in the water reacts with oxygen. When washed ashore by the tides, the phytoplankton’s chemical energy is turned into light energy, illuminating the waves.
10:44 pm • 15 January 2013 • 281,234 notes
All that’s been happening really changed me, inside and out. My mindset, my heart, the way i look at things. In a nutshell, i realize in life there’s so much for us to be thankful for. We often never realise it till we’re left with almost nothing, or when it’s taken away from us. The past week has definitely been very trying, but it’s possibly been the week i’ve grown the most in the whole year of 2012. Seemingly the longest and most difficult week, yet also the week where all the little blessings took place. I saw love, i saw hope, i saw family coming together, i saw those who rly held on with me. I learnt to be more independent, i learnt to be stronger, i saw how everyone grew stronger, and braver, i learnt that there are so many things in life we can do, and i truly understand, how great a blessing it is, to wake up every morning. Also, i found that You havent let me go, i’ve learnt to rely again for strength, to trust and have faith again for things unseen. It has indeed made us all stronger, and closer in fact. ‘What if trials of this life, and Your mercies in disguise’. Apt, how apt. I’m truly thankful.
This 2013 started well, and this year, im not gonna stay the same old same old anymore, im not gonna have that mindset i had last year. And i realised, that plays a big part in even how my day goes by. Seeing things more positively has made me, and those around me a happier person. This 2013, i pray for good health, more happines, faith, hope, love and joy.
To those who stayed by me the past year, to those who constantly encouraged me, who never stopped loving, who never gave up, i’m so thankful for each and everyone. And i never dared expect such love. I knoisw i might not be person, and i’ll never be a perfect person. But what i can promise, is to be a better person that i was yesterday.
Happy new year, everyone.
2013 is gonna be an awesome year, so long as you believe it, and you have faith to know it :)
And, be thankful even for the littlest of things, you never know what it may bring :)
With love, Tgx.
Ps, i had a simple yet awesome birthday this year. Thank you for all those who made it possible, i daren’t expect any gifts or surprises yet i received much more than i truly deserve. I really appreciate everything so much.
12:06 am • 4 January 2013 • 1 note